January 2012
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Jan 27th
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“Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee? ”
– Albert Camus (via thesaltwaternight)
Jan 26th
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He remembered smiling more as a child. None of the photos supported this, but it was what he recalled. Smiles and sunny days and snow all winter, never slush.
Jan 25th
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She woke most mornings and reminded herself that she wasn’t the hero of a story, that she wasn’t trapped in the opening chapters of a mid-break act. She questioned where the interlude cards might go, where an omniscient narrator might ruminate on her early-morning vicambulations through the empty, rain-slicked streets. [sunken eyes cast downward] one such card might read. [i’d...
Jan 25th
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Jan 25th
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Jan 24th
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Things I’m Not Going To Talk About: the drunk call I received at 2:30 this morning, two hours before I had to get up for work. Even if sleep hadn’t been an issue, that was a call I didn’t need, never needed, and for some reason didn’t hang up on. every barb and nettle in that voice, that slurring voice, the one that sought to remind me of all my faults how said phone...
Jan 23rd
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Lovers (cont.) And then there was Natalie, who had never had someone walk her home before. She told me that her last name was Amberson but that she’d taken it randomly from a phonebook, and that her true surname was an eastern European glottal string of consonants. I asked her where her family was and she changed the subject so quickly I got whiplash. In the eaves of her...
Jan 22nd
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photographs from your early twenties
magnificentruin: the line of empty glasses and bottles; the perpetual cigarette; the funny things you just said.
Jan 21st
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Jan 20th
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I have to be all of these different people. Every day is just a shuffling of the old cracking masks. Is that why, then, that the times I’m truly alone—even if just for an evening—I see for one clear moment that I’m not okay?
Jan 18th
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Anonymous asked: How do you tell someone how much they mean to you? Where do you even begin?
Jan 18th
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Jan 18th
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Jan 18th
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Jan 17th
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Jan 17th
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At times I believed too much in the alchemy of words, or not enough. But they were all I had. Just these airy words and the assumption that, once invoked, they would get what I wanted. Like money. Like God. I’ve won hearts and lost my own, often in the same breath.
Jan 16th
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Jan 15th
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Jan 14th
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Jan 13th
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Jan 12th
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Jan 12th
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Anonymous asked: you're extremely pretentious
Jan 12th
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Anonymous asked: Tell me about someone you've hurt.
Jan 12th
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Jan 12th
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Jan 11th
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Another one of those hollow nights where beer might fill these cavities but I’m just going to go workout instead.
Jan 11th
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Jan 11th
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Jan 10th
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Anonymous asked: What do you do when people don't appreciate you?
Jan 9th
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Jan 9th
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The broken wren lay in potted plants that hung on the windowsill. We’d watered it just that morning. The soil and loam were still damp; moisture crept into the twisted feathers that clung to that poor thing’s shattered wings. ‘I can’t die like this,’ the wren whimpered. Tremors wrecked up and down its body, trembling from beak to tail. There was a soft imprint on the...
Jan 9th
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Jan 8th
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Jan 7th
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Christ, but those days I just want to make the incision at the base of my skull and route around in the wiring until I’ve found that switch, that little switch that just turns me off, turns me into an object. No action, just reaction. I think I’d do well as an object, tossed about to whomever needed me for the carpool lane, a quick lay, a fourth for euchre…
Jan 7th
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Anonymous asked: I'm frightened, of situations I'm facing in real life, but also of things that go bump in the night. Please, some soothing words?
Jan 7th
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We had three days of winter. I needed three years.
Jan 6th
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Jan 6th
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Jan 6th
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We didn’t get to have one night in Paris. Rather, it was three, all of them spent on the pull-out couch of a mutual friend in Madison. Both of us considered refusing to attend the party in which we met, and we discussed at length what might have happened if one, the other, or neither had shown up. I drew a terrible charcoal sketch of you, you bought my coffee and whiskey. On the third night,...
Jan 6th
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Anonymous asked: How does one know when to give up? I just feel like I have nothing left.
Jan 5th
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If I could retreat, it would be back to Kalamazoo.
Jan 5th
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It’s amazing, reading these old messages of ours, that all it took was one painful act to turn us from something white-hot and electric into strangers. It’s nuclear fission, the splitting of a particle and the intense wave of energy that results, all of it eating me alive. It’s a white witch moth in reverse, furling its wings and crawling back into its cocoon. I can scarcely...
Jan 5th
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Jan 4th
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Anonymous asked: How does love at first sight work?
Jan 4th
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As per my GT VI training, I’ve been amalgamating several workouts into a regimen I believe will yield satisfactory results in a short amount of time. Most are the vanity workouts of celebrities that I’ve always flirted with throwing myself headlong into, but the rest happens to be a combination of recommended strength workouts from, say, Men’s Health and the accumulated intimate...
Jan 4th
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14 avril 1976 i hate it here. i hate st. john’s, i hate newfoundland, i hate that running away means running north, always north. it smells like the sea but not that ‘salt-and-wet-clay’ perfume. it’s brine and froth and rotting ambergris and gull shit. i can’t clean my skin of them. this motel is like a convalescent house. drunkards and whores and screamers and...
Jan 3rd
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Jan 3rd
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Jan 3rd
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Anonymous asked: How do you feel the Nolan Batman series should end? How do you think it will end?
Jan 3rd
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